Every once in a while a woman needs a man - not the man she is in a relationship with - to show some interest. Maybe even flirt a little. Just to let her know that she is still...well...not necessarily attractive, but...wanted?
Lately there has been a man who works in my office building who talks, smiles, opens my door...and he is cute as hell. I know he does this to other ladies also, so I don't and won't let it go to my head...but it makes me feel good.
And I've been receiving emails from a man I do not know. He wants to talk he says. I know nothing about him other than he is a mad dog (his words, not mine). I guess he read my profile and saw my little picture. I have no clue.
But, it makes me feel good. It makes me feel like a woman - again.
I guess I had started to lose that part of me. Someone who walks with her head held high, a little sway in my walk. Someone who can laugh again.
I don't want to lose that part of me. I want to laugh, cry, share, hold.
It's amazing what a smile and a kind word can do.
Monday, February 27, 2006
Sunday, February 26, 2006
The weekend ends...
Darn it.
Yes, I said it. Darn it all to heck anyway...
(Can you tell that the weekend has been anything but exciting?)
I did get a hair cut, long overdue. Trish does such a great job! I have this kinkycurlywavyfrizzy hair and she just does miracles with it. And, she has taught me how to do it too :)
On the way to the salon I did encounter a woman driving her car while on a cell phone....on the wrong side of the road. Now wouldn't you think having THREE lanes of traffic coming AT you that you would realize you were on the wrong side - kinda sorta going the wrong way?? ohhellno, she just kept on driving - and talking. What was really funny was the looks she gave me and the other drivers who stopped so she wouldn't hit us or others head on...
Today I went to see Mom. I love that woman. On the way back I stopped to pick up a few items at WalMart. One being a nose hair trimmer for the roomie. He can't use those little scissors I guess. Now, I'm probably wrong, but wouldn't it hurt if that little spinning thing gets caught and tangled on your nose hair? ohwell....he paid for it :)
Tonight while surfing blogs I found some interesting sites...good artists, bad artists - politics, religion, sex stories (ohmy), photographs and ponzi schemes.
Uh...wait...back up there...
Ponzi schemes?
Yep, you know - pyramid schemes. Make a ton of money by recruiting others - no product - fake work at home stuff. I actually found a blog telling how you can make thousands sitting at home blahblahblah...
The FTC describes it this way: "Ponzi" SchemesPonzi schemes are a type of illegal pyramid scheme named for Charles Ponzi, who duped thousands of New England residents into investing in a postage stamp speculation scheme back in the 1920s. Ponzi thought he could take advantage of differences between U.S. and foreign currencies used to buy and sell international mail coupons. Ponzi told investors that he could provide a 40% return in just 90 days compared with 5% for bank savings accounts. Ponzi was deluged with funds from investors, taking in $1 million during one three-hour period—and this was 1921! Though a few early investors were paid off to make the scheme look legitimate, an investigation found that Ponzi had only purchased about $30 worth of the international mail coupons.
Decades later, the Ponzi scheme continues to work on the "rob-Peter-to-pay-Paul" principle, as money from new investors is used to pay off earlier investors until the whole scheme collapses.
Even on weekends I bring my work home....arrrgh...someday I will just stop worrying about people that get involved in such stupid schemes.
And hell will freeze over too.
Ohwell, tomorrow is Monday. And I can check this work at home (cough cough) program out at the office....and send a nice email to the AG and FTC. It's my job, and I do it well :)
Yes, I said it. Darn it all to heck anyway...
(Can you tell that the weekend has been anything but exciting?)
I did get a hair cut, long overdue. Trish does such a great job! I have this kinkycurlywavyfrizzy hair and she just does miracles with it. And, she has taught me how to do it too :)
On the way to the salon I did encounter a woman driving her car while on a cell phone....on the wrong side of the road. Now wouldn't you think having THREE lanes of traffic coming AT you that you would realize you were on the wrong side - kinda sorta going the wrong way?? ohhellno, she just kept on driving - and talking. What was really funny was the looks she gave me and the other drivers who stopped so she wouldn't hit us or others head on...
Today I went to see Mom. I love that woman. On the way back I stopped to pick up a few items at WalMart. One being a nose hair trimmer for the roomie. He can't use those little scissors I guess. Now, I'm probably wrong, but wouldn't it hurt if that little spinning thing gets caught and tangled on your nose hair? ohwell....he paid for it :)
Tonight while surfing blogs I found some interesting sites...good artists, bad artists - politics, religion, sex stories (ohmy), photographs and ponzi schemes.
Uh...wait...back up there...
Ponzi schemes?
Yep, you know - pyramid schemes. Make a ton of money by recruiting others - no product - fake work at home stuff. I actually found a blog telling how you can make thousands sitting at home blahblahblah...
The FTC describes it this way: "Ponzi" SchemesPonzi schemes are a type of illegal pyramid scheme named for Charles Ponzi, who duped thousands of New England residents into investing in a postage stamp speculation scheme back in the 1920s. Ponzi thought he could take advantage of differences between U.S. and foreign currencies used to buy and sell international mail coupons. Ponzi told investors that he could provide a 40% return in just 90 days compared with 5% for bank savings accounts. Ponzi was deluged with funds from investors, taking in $1 million during one three-hour period—and this was 1921! Though a few early investors were paid off to make the scheme look legitimate, an investigation found that Ponzi had only purchased about $30 worth of the international mail coupons.
Decades later, the Ponzi scheme continues to work on the "rob-Peter-to-pay-Paul" principle, as money from new investors is used to pay off earlier investors until the whole scheme collapses.
Even on weekends I bring my work home....arrrgh...someday I will just stop worrying about people that get involved in such stupid schemes.
And hell will freeze over too.
Ohwell, tomorrow is Monday. And I can check this work at home (cough cough) program out at the office....and send a nice email to the AG and FTC. It's my job, and I do it well :)
Thursday, February 23, 2006
I have HAPPY FEET!!!
(Insert a Happy Dance here!)
My son called today - he heard from his lawyer - he will have his insurance settlement tomorrow!
Yeahhhhhhhhhh!
What does this mean? A lot actually....a whole lot.
My son has gone through hell the last 3-1/2 yrs. Physically, mentally, emotionally and financially. Since the explosion his life has had so many ups and downs - but the light at the end of that tunnel is getting brighter. Much brighter. Now he can at least be secure financially, pay his bills and that in turn will help the emotional and mental aspects.
The money will help with the physical part too. He will now be able to have the remaining surgeries that are needed on his jaw and teeth.
For me? I am just SO thrilled to know that my son has a brighter future. He won't have to live paycheck to paycheck as I have always done. Now when he brings home his paycheck he will be able to pay his bills and not have to worry about the medical bills that have mounted the last few years.
And he won't have to "borrow" from good ole Mom anymore (very large grin inserted here). Of course, good ole Mom will always help him if he needs it.
That's what Moms do. :)
My son called today - he heard from his lawyer - he will have his insurance settlement tomorrow!
Yeahhhhhhhhhh!
What does this mean? A lot actually....a whole lot.
My son has gone through hell the last 3-1/2 yrs. Physically, mentally, emotionally and financially. Since the explosion his life has had so many ups and downs - but the light at the end of that tunnel is getting brighter. Much brighter. Now he can at least be secure financially, pay his bills and that in turn will help the emotional and mental aspects.
The money will help with the physical part too. He will now be able to have the remaining surgeries that are needed on his jaw and teeth.
For me? I am just SO thrilled to know that my son has a brighter future. He won't have to live paycheck to paycheck as I have always done. Now when he brings home his paycheck he will be able to pay his bills and not have to worry about the medical bills that have mounted the last few years.
And he won't have to "borrow" from good ole Mom anymore (very large grin inserted here). Of course, good ole Mom will always help him if he needs it.
That's what Moms do. :)
Monday, February 20, 2006
The Joy of Comments
Yes, I deleted a comment.
I am trying hard to understand why people put degrading comments on peoples blogs. Are they so miserable and unhappy with themselves that they must go around the web and put comments on posts that are nasty, rude and crude?
Who are you, Mr. Commenter, to say those things to me? Yet to build yourself up? Can you walk through a doorway with your head that big?
If you like my post - tell me. If you don't like my post - tell me that also. But don't attack ME when you don't even know who I am.
I am trying hard to understand why people put degrading comments on peoples blogs. Are they so miserable and unhappy with themselves that they must go around the web and put comments on posts that are nasty, rude and crude?
Who are you, Mr. Commenter, to say those things to me? Yet to build yourself up? Can you walk through a doorway with your head that big?
If you like my post - tell me. If you don't like my post - tell me that also. But don't attack ME when you don't even know who I am.
Friday, February 17, 2006
What do I look like???
I do NOT look like this. Good lord I wish I did.
So tell me why, please oh please...
Did a man think I was...well..hmmm...trying to...well...ahem...sell myself on the street today?
It's Friday forgodssake...I was wearing jeans, tennis shoes, TWO (count em!) TWO sweaters (one being a turtleneck) and a heavy coat with my hood up....It's casual Friday!
I was NOT wearing a short skirt, fmp's and fishnet stockings.
I WAS outside watching the construction guys carrying things in and out of our building while taking a smoke break (yes, I am a smoker).
And....he was on a bike!
Not a Harley type bike - but a Schwinn type bike! Two wheels and pedals!
Even if I were trying to sell myself (and I was not) A bike??? What did he want me to do ride him while he peddled?
I am good, but not THAT good!
The construction men got a good laugh.
Me? Well, lets just say I won't be standing on the street smoking anymore...
Thursday, February 16, 2006
I am being bad...real bad...bitch even...
This is hysterical.
And, it reminds me of someone.
Someone I know VERY well.
And its still hysterical.
Hysterical, but sad.
ohwell... It's still funny :)
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Valentines Day....bah humbug
That about sums up the day.
It started last night.
The roomie came to be and asked me to start checking on flights for US to go to Vegas in April. I did so. Found some good rates and schedules, and found some rooms at hotels that were not outrageous in price. There is a convention there that he usually goes to (one day out of the three its there).
Then he springs it on me that his ex would be out of the country at that time and his 16 yr old son would be spending the week alone.
So...like an idiot (or a Mother - you decide) I said "do you honestly think its a good idea to leave him here alone for a week?"....
He says, "Maybe not, so I'll just go out myself for a few days."
Excuse me?
I repeat....Excuse me?
So now I am supposed to babysit your 16 yr old while you go to Vegas for 3-5 days when you said that you will attend the convention for one afternoon?
I did this last year.
Not this year.
And then you give me some little stuffed green M&M toy you got at the drug store for Valentines Day.
Ohboy, I'll cherish that all my life. The thought you put into that gift. And you didn't even say thank you for the gold tie tack I bought you...yes, the diamond is real.
The only good thing about today? My boy called - his blood tests are fine!!! Now we await the results of the CT scan he had yesterday. I'll keep my fingers and toes crossed...and say an extra prayer or two.
Happy Valentines Day everyone. Hope yours was wonderful.
Maybe next year....maybe next year.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Benzene, abscesses and my son....
If you follow this blog at all, you will know that recently my son was gassed with benzene at his place of work - Zug Island (hell on earth).
At that same time he developed an abscess on his tail bone. A bad one. He has been back and forth to doctors the last few weeks for it. Antibiotics are being taken, and not doing a lot of good. He has built up an immunity to them... He saw a surgeon the other day, has to have a CAT scan done next Monday and will see the surgeon again. They will more than likely have to go in and clean it out, scrape it and make sure it hasn't gone deeper.
I know we are not supposed to question why things happen, but sometimes I just have to...I do.
In June 2002 my boy was in a major fireworks explosion. He was in a coma for 5 days. He went through 18 surgeries in two years time. He had 17 fractures in his face and almost lost his arm. He still has more surgeries to go through to try and straighten his jaw and repair his jaw teeth that were damaged.
But he made it through. It's not been easy for him (or me) but he is whole and alive.
Two years ago he wrapped his cavalier around a tree. Banged him up pretty good, but again he made it through.
The financial difficulties because of all this has been horrible for both of us. Of course I have helped him all I can - I am his Mom! And, I will continue to help him.
So, in the last few years I have almost lost him three times. He's not a cat - he does not have nine lives! (At least that is what I keep telling him!!)
Just when he starts to see a light at the end of his dark tunnel something else happens...now its the abscess.
He is scared. He is 23 and living alone in Michigan. His father seems to be more understanding with him lately (thankgod). We talk daily. I will be with him if and when he has this surgery. And I will do what I can to help him heal - both physically and mentally.
I want him to smile again. Really and truly smile and be happy. I want him to wake up each day and be thankful for his life and to enjoy getting out of bed to face another day.
I just want my son to be happy, healthy and loved.
I can help with the loved part :)
At that same time he developed an abscess on his tail bone. A bad one. He has been back and forth to doctors the last few weeks for it. Antibiotics are being taken, and not doing a lot of good. He has built up an immunity to them... He saw a surgeon the other day, has to have a CAT scan done next Monday and will see the surgeon again. They will more than likely have to go in and clean it out, scrape it and make sure it hasn't gone deeper.
I know we are not supposed to question why things happen, but sometimes I just have to...I do.
In June 2002 my boy was in a major fireworks explosion. He was in a coma for 5 days. He went through 18 surgeries in two years time. He had 17 fractures in his face and almost lost his arm. He still has more surgeries to go through to try and straighten his jaw and repair his jaw teeth that were damaged.
But he made it through. It's not been easy for him (or me) but he is whole and alive.
Two years ago he wrapped his cavalier around a tree. Banged him up pretty good, but again he made it through.
The financial difficulties because of all this has been horrible for both of us. Of course I have helped him all I can - I am his Mom! And, I will continue to help him.
So, in the last few years I have almost lost him three times. He's not a cat - he does not have nine lives! (At least that is what I keep telling him!!)
Just when he starts to see a light at the end of his dark tunnel something else happens...now its the abscess.
He is scared. He is 23 and living alone in Michigan. His father seems to be more understanding with him lately (thankgod). We talk daily. I will be with him if and when he has this surgery. And I will do what I can to help him heal - both physically and mentally.
I want him to smile again. Really and truly smile and be happy. I want him to wake up each day and be thankful for his life and to enjoy getting out of bed to face another day.
I just want my son to be happy, healthy and loved.
I can help with the loved part :)
Monday, February 06, 2006
Back in Ohio....again...
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
I miss the beach already! The day we left Miami it was 78 degrees!
It's 25 in Ohio now!
ARRRRRGHHHHH!
It was a good trip. We had rain one day, a couple days of high winds (see the pic above!) - but it was great anyway. Laying on the beach and listening to the waves - heaven, pure heaven.
We went to the Hard Rock Casino in Hollywood twice. The first day I won $30! Thought I was hot shit :) Second day I lost $60...ohwell. Had a great time and only lost $30. The roomie? He lost $120 the first day - and then won over $300 the next!!! On a NICKEL slot machine!! luckysombitch...
One word of advice if you ever go...if you see a "Hollywood Super Mall" on the map and decide to go...don't. I think it was the most empty mall I've ever seen. And Aventura? Well, if you have lots of money - enjoy! If you are like me - have fun looking!
The last morning in Sunny Isles I got up about 6, grabbed my cup of coffee and stood on the balcony and watched the sun come up and just listened to the waves. I could stand there forever, watching the birds flying over the water - diving into the water, the sun glistening on the water...and the sound, the wonderful sound.
Good job God...good job.
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