Orlando? San Diego? Vegas? What to do..what to do..

The roomie has decided he wants to go on vacation - again.

Ok fine. I figure this will be my last one for a long long time, and I'm always up for a vacation trip. I'm a Sagittarius after all :)

But now to decide where to go...hmmmmm...

Orlando with a side trip to the ocean. I could handle that. Sand, surf, sunshine...Possibly a cabana boy or two (or three, but hey I'm not gonna be picky - not when it comes to cabana boys). We could see the Mouse. Went there once - our very first trip together ever. December 1998. We had gone to Pleasure Isle the night before and well, let's just say the roomie consumed too many draft beers (I almost had to get a luggage cart to use to get him up to the room) - so needless to say he wasn't in the mood to ride any rides the next day. He did take me to see the Mouse though and I would love to go again.

Or there is San Diego. Hmmm....Sand, surf, sunshine. And yep, you got it - cabana boys (well, maybe. I never saw any last time we were there). We went there a couple of years ago for two whole days as part of a side trip to Phoenix. His brother and wife went with us and well, lets just say we didn't get to see a whole heck of a lot. I got whiplash while driving down Hollywood Blvd. (ok, so we took a side trip on the side trip - to LA). The roomies brother yelled - There's Graumans Chinese Theatre!

ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!

Damn...missed it...

Oh, I got a picture of the Beverly Hills sign. By hanging out the car window while stopped at a traffic light.

Did make it to the zoo. Great place! Had a lot of fun there and even got to see a baby panda. Took lots and lots of pics.

Best part of that side trip was La Jolla. The ocean was just absolutely gorgeous there. I could have sat there for days.

So yes, San Diego - California in general - is a definite option.

Or, we could do....

VEGAS BABY!

We went there almost two years ago. My first and only time. Had a great time there. Didn't win anything. Went with $500 to blow and came back with $115 (won it back on the last day!). So many things we didn't get to see there - wanted to go to the old section of town, etc. So - we have talked of doing that, maybe even seeing a show or two. Just walking the Strip and people watching is a trip.

We saw Santa there last time. Sitting outside M & M World reading the paper, wearing a straw hat and a brightly flowered shirt. I think he was having a little fun before the big night just two weeks later. I just walked by and told him "I'm being a good girl Santa." His comment? "I bet you are...I bet you are."

Hmmmm...didn't get much for Christmas that year....

So, IF we really do take a trip in November, we have some decisions to make.

What to do...what to do....

Wherever we go I'm sure it will be great. And I will cherish it forever, for it may be my last trip with the roomie.

We'll see what happens.

(But - if we go to Vegas I won't be able to tell you. Ya know...what happens in Vegas...

Getting older....

I think I am going through a mid-life crisis.

Whatever in the hell that means.

My father used to say "A 50something year old person can't be going through a mid-life crisis - because how many people actually live to be over 100 years old??

I feel like a teenager who is hitting that time in their life when they are trying to decide what they want to do for the rest of their life.

Confusion! Changes in appearance! Hormones running rampant!!

Good Lord! Do we actually revert to our teenage years?? Acck!

(Well, that could account for the acne I get on occasion.)

No, I don't want to run out and have affairs and act like I am 20something again. Nothing worse than a 50 year old woman dressing like a teenage girl and trying to act like one.

But, I am trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.

My job is ok. I do get some "validation" at times. Someone will thank me for helping them out of a jam, or I get government officials involved in a case to stop a bad person from taking advantage of someone else. Those validations mean a lot.

But in my personal life? Well, it's non-existent (with the exception of my child and Mom - they love me unconditionally thank God).

And now I think it's time I moved on to the next phase of my life.

A life without the roomie.

It's something I've been thinking about for a long time. It's not been an easy decision - I've been with this man for almost 8 years. But, I truly believe in my heart it's something I must do.

It's scary, yet exciting. I've lived on my own most of my life, so I know what to expect. Yes, it might be lonely at times - but I truly think being with someone and being lonely is far worse that being alone.

And, even though I am now a "mature" woman (hey...I'm not old yet!) there are many things I want to do and try. Things that I can not do here - I'm not allowed. (I won't go into detail, no point.)

Someday I may end up back in Michigan. My child wants me there. Not now though, I can't leave Mom. But someday I will be close to him again.

I want to wake up and smile at the sun shining in the window. I want to scrub floors that are mine, because I want to. If I don't want to cook and want to stop and pick up tacos on the way home....Well okay! I want to be able to spend time with people that mean a lot to me and not feel guilty for doing so.

I want to look in a mirror and like "me" again.

It's time for a change.

Mid-life crisis? Not sure, maybe...could be.

Nope...It's time for Sandy to have a life.