Thursday, July 17, 2008

I had an interview...

Although I am still employed at the plating company, with the boss who wants to quit...I have been continuing my search for a job.

And I got a call...

On a job I applied for over 3 months ago.

And I had an interview - yesterday.

And, they want to see me again next week.

Yea me!!!

Actually, when I got there I was told there had been 45 applicants for the position - and they narrowed it down to two. I am one of those two.

Oh....and they actually have 2 positions available.

Problem is - one pays a lot less than the other - and they both pay less than what I am currently making.

However - the jobs are at a very very good private University.

I want the job that offers 40 hours a week. Not because of more pay - but because the job is database management (something I've done for the last 8 years)...and it would be getting in on the ground floor of a new huge project.

I want that job.

The benefits are unreal. The chance for advancement is wonderful.

And its a very very stable environment.

And, they liked me :)

Another problem....they want me to come in next Wednesday at 9:00am.

Uh...I am working.....

They know this.

So now I have to lie and come up with some excuse to be away from work. And, I do not get paid when I am not there.

But I really want the job.

The man I would work with seemed so great. Retired military. We talked for 1-1/2 hrs - and that was after an interview with another man in the office!

I am trying not to get too excited about it.

Thats not easy

So please...cross your fingers and toes for me.

Don't cross your eyes though....they might get stuck like that.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Catching up...

Ok ok, so I've been away for a bit.

Did you miss me?

Sigh...didn't even know I was gone did you?

I wish I could say I've been so busy having fun that I didn't have time to write - but I would be lying. And, I don't want to do that.

Actually, I've been working, doing the usual chores around the house, spending time with Mom and not a whole lot else.

Work is driving me nutso - so, the search is continuing. In the last few days I have applied for an admin assistant job for a shoe company that has a distribution center within bike riding distance...a dispatch position with a freight company within 2 miles of here, oh...and a zoning officer for a small village exactly 6.8 miles from here and it has a population of 430 people!

The boss is a nice enough guy - but he has said he is looking for another job. And since they made my position in order to support him...well, if he goes what happens to me? His answer? "Oh, they will find you something to do..."

I don't want to do "something" for the rest of my life.

Anyway....

Oh, and I got the car fixed - again. So far so good...knock on wood (ouch ouch ouch)...

Mom had her 85th birthday last Thursday. And, even though she has had multiple strokes, she is still an amazing woman. I gave her a little trinket box with elephants on it (she loves em) and I figured instead of getting her jewelry again I got her 50 $1 scratch off lottery tickets.

She was in heaven :)

She sat and scratched them off immediately. She won a little money so that Saturday I took her shopping. And what did she buy?

Jewelry.

Yep...a little ruby ring.

But, it made her happy.

Let's see, what else....

oh..the roomie.

He is still the roomie. He tells me tonight we may not do the Vegas trip in October after all.

sigh...

The one thing I have been looking forward to....ohwell...

No, no reason - just no trip.

Kind of like the trip we were supposed to take a few weekends ago that never materialized either. It was never mentioned again.

Ahhh...the roomie.

Ok, so that's it for now. I think I am basically caught up.

What's been happening in your world?

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Grrrrrrrrr......car repairs!....grrrrrrrrrr again....

Last November I took my Jeep into the dealership to get an oil change and have them look at the right front tire area as it felt like there was something rubbing.

By the end of the day, the repairs cost me almost $1,000.

And...at the end of the day, I had a new problem - a leak in the left front differential.

Please note...I said "left front"...not the side where the rubbing was. They had replaced the differential fluid they said.

And, since that day in late November, I have taken the car back to that dealership 5 times to have the same problem fixed.

Five. Yes, five. As in one, two, three, four.....

One time they insisted that they had "tested" the car, that there was no leak.

I conducted my own "test" by placing cardboard under the car. I took the test results with me to the service department and gave it to them.

They were not pleased.

Yesterday I took the car back again....same problem. Oh, and a different problem, not related. The blower stopped working ($17 for the part...$124 to "test" it)..and the air conditioning just doesn't seem to be working very well ($89 )

And today...as I drove to work I smelled a familiar smell. When I came out after work - there was a distinct puddle again under the left front tire.

So, when I got here to the house I called the dealership. I asked for the name of the service manager and the owner/general manager so I could mail them. She asked me to hold and put me through to the service department.

The same guy I have talked to since November....

I told him what was going on - again. Again, he blamed the Chrysler tech's as they were the ones supposedly telling them how to fix my Jeep. Again he tells me I have to bring it in.

Again I tell him I will have to see if I can find someone to follow me the 30 miles to their dealership and give me a ride to work....again...for the SIXTH time...

I hung up and called Chrysler. I explained everything to the guy who answered. He looked up my records and confirmed what I had told him. He put me on hold to "talk to his supervisor".

The supervisor got on the line and again I had to give all my information so she could look up the record. And then she asked....

"What do you want us to do?"

Excuse me?? Excuse me???? I want my freaking car fixed!

I proceed to tell her had my car been new it would have been replaced - lemon law. And, I proceeded to tell her that I had been considering buying another Chrysler product (I have...) but not now - and I DEFINITELY will not buy from the dealership located in Beavercreek, Ohio!

"So, what do you want us to do?" she asked again.

I took a deep breath. "Lady, I want my Jeep fixed. It did not leak before I took it to that dealer and now it does. I have had to take it there FIVE freaking times and they can not fix it. I want it fixed and I want it fixed correctly. And I NEED YOUR HELP TO GET THAT DONE"

"Ok", she said. "Hold on while I call the dealer".

She calls...I hold...she finally comes back and tells me that she has discussed it with "Mike" and that they will get my car fixed and they will get a few others involved to make sure that happens.

I will believe it when I drive my Jeep home and do not smell that smell or see piles of smelly gunk under my car again..

So, I will call ole Mike tomorrow and see if I can schedule to take my car in this week or see if they want me to wait til Monday....and I will tell them I need a rental car....

A FREE rental car.

We'll see what happens...

Monday, June 16, 2008

Ok....

So I've been on the job two full weeks now.

Or..as my friend Karie calls it - the "tree house"...

The office I sit in is up a flight of metal stairs...in the middle of the plant.

It shakes.

A lot.

The first time it happened it scared the hell out of me.

A forklift was unloading some material off the shelves on one side of this little office tree house thing...and you would swear you were in the midst of an earthquake.

And no, I did not run screaming out of there....

But I did think about it :)

My new boss is an okay guy. Quiet. Very quiet. Doesn't like to explain how to do things. He hands me something and says "Here"...

And...I am to figure out what in the hell to do with it.

I am learning more about chemicals than I ever thought I would - or wanted to. And, I am realizing how dangerous this place I work at could actually be. But...

I am the safety assistant! So, its gotta be safe!

Right?

Right??

Awwww come on!!!

Anyway...its a job. It's not what I had hoped. It's a paycheck and that's it. It's not in my gut like the last job.

I am giving it a chance, or at least I am trying. And, its not like I can just quit because I can't. But I can continue my search for something else.

And I am....

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Did I really say I had missed working???

Someone smack me now!

At some time (or two or three) in the last few months I talked of how I wanted a job - of how I NEEDED a job...

And now, four days into it....

I am one tired old lady!

Good lord I didn't realize how quickly you get out of a routine of working day in and day out. Getting up at 5am each day, trying to go to bed earlier than you have been....

arrrrghh! I am NOT a young woman anymore!

Damnit! I don't want to feel old! I don't want to be this tired!

And yes - I AM GRUMPY!!

The new boss seems okay. Kinda quiet, but nice. Busy as hell so he hasn't had a lot of time to show me the ropes. He has said I've done good on a few things (writing a summary on the effects of lead for one). And, the last two days I have completed a 10 hour OSHA training class - then rushed back to work and attended some training classes there - no lunch (but that's ok...I can stand to lose a few pounds - or two - or ten). The office is upstairs (open stairs - open metal stairs....eeek...), the ladies room is across the plant and up another set of stairs....

Can you say "work out?".....

And yes - I AM GRUMPY!!!

(notice there were three !'s that time?)...

Anyway, tomorrow is Friday. I've almost made it through my first week.

And I'll go back on Monday...

If they still want me :)

Sunday, June 01, 2008

I feel like a kid....

Well - almost.

Ok, just sorta kinda.

Tomorrow I have my first day at a new job. This is the first time I have had to do this in over 8 years.

I have to be there at 8am for orientation (Flashback to freshman year in high school...).

So, I went out and bought some padded paper and a clip board.

To take notes...

Ohgoodlord...will I be known as the clipboard lady?

I am nervous.

Will they like me? Will I do a good job?

Should I pack my lunch?

See!!! I told you!!!

So...tomorrow is the day.

I hope I survive...

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Ta-Da!!! I have a job!!

Last Friday afternoon I received a phone call asking me to come in on Tuesday for an interview at 1pm.

I had applied for the position earlier in the week...

So, yesterday I got all cleaned up, put my smiley face on and went for the interview.

When I got there they handed me an application to fill out and a test or two to take. A personality test...

ohjeez...

But, I answered their questions, did the little math test and found the mistakes in the typed communications.

I then interviewed with the Safety Director and the Human Resources Manager. We talked for at least an hour. I thanked them for their time when I left and the HR Mgr stated they would be in touch in a few days.

The phone rang this morning at 10am....and she offered me a job.

Yea! Whoopee!!! Hot Damn even!!!

I start this coming Monday. The pay isn't quite what I was making at the last job but its not a lot less - and I am told I will get a pay increase in 90 days. The hours are phenomenal - 7:30 - 4!!! I love it love it! And...........

I get to wear JEANS to work ALL THE TIME! It's very casual as I will be spending a lot of time in the plant.

So...this ole lady, after 3-1/2 months of being out of work, has a job. A steady paycheck...insurance...and hopefully - stability.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

In Memory - A Tribute to a Veteran


There stood, in 1941, a young man. Handsome in his army uniform, standing about 5'11, 185 lbs, as he married his sweetheart of 3 months, not knowing that in 2 yrs he would be off to Europe, fighting a war unlike any known before. And he did, leaving a wife and young son to go to war. He was a Sergeant, in charge of a group of men all younger than he yet they all were prepared to fight for their lives, their country, their families. their freedom.

The horrors he saw were the same as those before him had seen, and those soldiers that would someday follow. He and his group of men rescued a woman and her daughters from the enemy, who were terrifying their lives attempting to rape them, and remove any innocence left in their souls. The woman being so grateful, gave the Sergeant her silver wedding band as a token of gratitude. He watched young men be wounded, some die. He held them as they took their last breaths. He saw young men lose their sanity, shooting at anything that moved..and cared for them until medics arrived.

The war continued for this soldier until Dec 28th of 1944, during the Battle of the Bulge...when one of the men in his troop, while marching behind him stepped onto a land mine, it exploded..killing the young private and seriously wounding the Sergeant. He awoke a few weeks later in a hospital in France. It was March of 1945 before he was able to go home.

He found upon his return that he no longer had a job, the plant would not hire him back, as they considered him disabled. He took a job with a drugstore, and worked hard and long hours to take care of his family. He also took with him memento's of the war, schrapnel still was in his body..with the threat that if it moved, it could kill him.

He worked hard, raised his family and grew older. He spent 3 days in 1972 at a veterans hospital going thru one test after another in an attempt to have his disability rating increased, so one of his daughters could go to college. Nurses commented to him, questioning to find out if he was aware that he had metal in his body, he laughed. They increased his rating to 85%, not enough. He was so discouraged, but the daughter wasn't. She knew this was done with love, and it meant more to her than any medical school could have.

This man would sit and watch movies that would bring back the past, wringing his hands and smoking a million cigarettes as the memories over took him, yet this man who fought the enemy and had killed could touch a human with the softness of angels.

In 1989 he was hospitalized, at a veterans hospital. His wife and some of his children would visit every day, and listen to the stories told by the vets who were there with him. One of his daughters learned about life from these men, and learned of their courage, and how to find her own. The old Sergeant took a turn for the worse, and was placed in intensive care, and on Feb 24, 1989 they took him from there to a private room, so his family could spend his last few hours alone with him.

His wife of 48 years, and one of his daughters, spent that time with him, leaving only to fight with nurses to get him water, or storming a doctors quarters to get pain medication for a man who had given everything he had for his country, his home. Fighting to give this man his chance to die with dignity, as he had lived. The battle was won, they gave the soldier his medicine, and at 4:50 that afternoon the nurse called to his wife and daughter...saying "he needs you". His wife held him in her arms, his daughter at his side holding his hand, they said goodbye.

His widow has his flag, placed on the shelf beside his picture, and an old silver wedding band lays in the jewelry box. His purple heart is now a special possession of one of his daughters. He lies in a cemetery, with his son and an infant daughter, his grave marker bearing his name...

His soul is free, the war is over.

Dedicated to all Veterans past, present and future.
In Loving Memory of my Father
Sgt. Charles Joseph Horner, US Army
75th Division, 289th Infantry
Anti Tank Corps.

(Side note: I wrote this in 1998. It was published in a local newspaper for Veterans Day 1999 as the lead entry of a tribute to all veterans. I posted it here in my blog previously. I wanted to run it again. I miss you Pop.)

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

My neighbors probably think I am nuts...

Ok ok...they may be right.

At least I am not dangerous.

Except to the weeds in the yard.

Why do they think I am nuts you ask?

Well...it's 9:30 in the morning and I've already been outside taking pictures of the flowers I've planted. And I've taken pictures of other things in the yard. The fountain, birds, ducks....

This is my newest pic - taken this morning...

asian lily

Isn't it pretty??

Ok, ok...so maybe taking pictures of flowers isn't so nutso. But do you have pictures like this?

fountain

It's the fountain in the front yard...

Ohhh I don't claim to be a great photographer. Heck, I don't even claim to be good at it. But I do enjoy it. And I will take pictures of just about anything...

Or anyone....

Nuts? No, not really.

Not yet anyway.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Snap - Crackle - Pop......Ouch...

If you are familiar with my blog, you might be aware that I quit smoking last July after approximately 30 years of smoking. I stopped the day of my first of two back surgeries last summer.

And..yes..I have gained a few pounds...

arrrgghh....

But, I am continuing on my quest to lose those few pounds.

I've written before about my treadmill, and my exercise bike. They are still being used. But now...well....

I bought an exercise DVD.

And I think that woman is out to kill me.

I've been doing the 10 minute cardio workout 2 or 3 times a day most days this past week.

That woman wants me to do jumping jacks for one solid minute. Non stop.

"You can do it!", she says...

Snap! Pop! Crunch...grindddddddddd.... ouch....

No sweetheart, I can't.

I try. I honestly and truly do try. I start out with the marching in place, pumping my arms like she says. I kick my leg out in front of me - pushing my arms out as I go. I do the squat and reach thing - not a problem! I can even run in place - getting my knees up like she asks me too...

But those damned jumping jacks will be the death of me.

Last night I was giving it the good old college try and was actually about 20 seconds into the minute when the bedroom door opens - the roomie is standing there and says, "What in the hell are you doing?"

"What in the hell does it look like I'm doing?" I huffed and puffed out...

He just looked at me with that "I am just too stupid to live" look of his and said, "She should be wearing a bikini".

I stopped mid jack....

I guess the look I gave him said all it needed to say as he stepped out of the room and shut the door.

By then the jumping jack session of the cardio workout was over and we were moving on to something else.

And my bones were still squeeking out an ouchie here and there...

If you hear loud popping and grinding noises tonight, ignore them.

It's just me...trying again.

Maybe tonight, just maybe...I'll get to 30 seconds :)

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Ok, ok...so I'm nice...

Geesh...

Today is the roomies birthday.

So I decided to be nice and do some things for him.

(Hey! It's not THAT unusual!)

It started a couple of weeks ago when I decided I would do a "birthday bag" for him. And, I would fill it (and did) with all kinds of things that he would like...

I think....

There is a very nice polo shirt, complete with pocket for his cigarettes (I quit last year..not him), a $25 I-Tunes card (he downloads all types of music, radio shows etc etc), a set of 100 old science fiction and horror movies (you know the kind - the old "B" flicks they used to show at the drive in), a new mouse pad that looks like a soccer ball (he loves the sport now...after years of telling me its a sissy sport), a hat from his favorite soccer team - Chelsea, a remote for his camera (yea, the one I told you about in a previous post...see, I am nice!) and his very special gift...

A Speed Racer car with action figure!

And...I baked him 24 cupcakes.

(yes yes...there is a reason I made cupcakes instead of a cake...he can take the things to work so I won't eat them!!)

I am making enchilada's for dinner. He likes the way I make them. So we will have those, re-fried beans, spanish rice and chips and salsa.

Not bad for a guy that bought me a "combo christmas/birthday" gift...and never uttered the words "happy birthday" on my day.

But that's ok...sniffsniff...I am nice. I can rise above it all and be nice. (stop coughing!)

Anyway...its his birthday. I think he will be happy.

If not....Speed Racer gets sold on eBay....

Monday, May 12, 2008

7.0 out of 10...

I am sitting here tonight going through blogs…

Other peoples blogs.

It’s amazing to me what people write about. Little french bulldogs, the life of a vet school student, busy mommas, e.coli, travels, etc etc etc.

Even me…I am writing about other peoples blogs!

I guess it started because I have signed up for a few blog groups. Trying to get more people to read my blog I guess (ohgoodlord…now why in the hell do I want that???) - and in doing so, one site I joined actually has “experts” who will review your blog and rate it.

I am happy to say that I received a 7.0 out of 10 (ok ok…I have room for improvement! Geesh!) and its rated as “very good”

Yea me!

(Thank you, thank you…curtsy inserted here)

So, I decided to see what types of ratings other blogs received.

There were a lot of 9.5’s and 9.0’s. Really good and well written blogs. I need to read these to see what I can do to make mine better (besides paying off the reviewers…I am unemployed after all!). But, I noticed some lower scores also…

The lowest being 0.2.

I do believe I feel really bad for that person!

They didn't even make a 1.0 (poor).

I did have to giggle at a couple blogs that did score a 1.0 (poor)

Personal development, motivation and making money at home, online money ventures, franchising…

They are going to motivate you and tell you how to own and run a business when they get a poor rating on the writing of a blog??

Oh…and then there was one on muff diving.

Yes, muff diving.

And it got a poor rating.

I think I’ll just leave that one alone….

So anyway (ahem…ahem…) I will bask in the joy of knowing I ranked a “very good”..for now…it could always change tomorrow.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Mom...

Your smile brings joy and happiness to my heart.

And your laughter fills me with love.

The hugs you give are enough to warm us from the coldest of winters.

You always made time for others, even when it caused you hardship.

You say you've been blessed with the gift of children.

I think its the other way around - your children were blessed with you.

You are my friend, my confidant, my partner in crime.

You are my Mother. And I love you.

Friday, May 09, 2008

WoooHooo! I feel SO stimulated!!

ok ok...at least $600 worth of stimulation.

I got my money from our Government.

And I will not spend it all in one place. Trust me.

This money will be saved in case I need it to survive.

I am unemployed after all.

Sorry Pres. Bush, but with the economy the way it is, and the job market the way it is - I just don't feel free to go out and spend this and stimulate the economy the way you want it done.

After all...gas is now $3.79/gal so that will buy 158-1/3 gallons of gas or approximately 9 tanks....

Doesn't seem like a lot of money when you figure it that way now does it?

And, since I normally spend at least $100/week at the grocery - well, that's only about 6 weeks worth.

Ohhhhh I'm not complaining mind you. With being out of work right now that is 6 weeks or groceries that I don't have to worry about paying for - or 9 tanks of gas that I don't have to worry about either...

But $600 only goes so far with the economy the way it is. You all know that.

I just wish our Government knew it - or at least acknowledged the hard times that an awful lot of people are having.

Higher grocery prices, gas prices through the roof while oil companies are reporting RECORD PROFITS, unemployment at record highs, foreclosure rates at record highs...

Well...I'll get off my soapbox now.

But you all get out there now and stimulate the economy!!! Spread it around!! I'm counting on you.

:)

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

So now I cry...



I'm still unemployed.

The lady called - her voice sounded odd - not so upbeat. She said, and I quote, "I really pulled for you. But corporate wouldn't listen."

She said she will keep my resume on her desk. "Things don't always work out." She said.

I thanked her.

And now I cry.

The job search continues...

Monday, May 05, 2008

Still breathing...

Ok, so the interview went well.

So well in fact they want a second one tomorrow morning.

eeeekkk...

From what I understand, its now between me and two others for the position.

I am supposed to go in there and make them want me. I am supposed to go in there and sell myself.

ohgoodlord...

I am who I am. I can do anything they throw at me. I give 110% to a job - even when they show no loyalty to their employees.

And I have no one here to share my feelings with or talk to period.

The roomie? ohIdon'tthinkso... Talk to me about feelings? I think he'd rather pull his teeth out.

Ohwait...too late....he had that done last year. They are probably in a little plastic container as I type this.

Anyway...tomorrow will be the last interview. If I get the job I will start this week - at least that's what she said Friday.

So, I am still breathing. Not turning blue. I am still crossing my fingers, toes, legs and eyes (it's hell typing like this ya know).

Maybe, just maybe, by tomorrow evening I'll be employed.

Then I can really breathe again.

Friday, May 02, 2008

Breathe...Breathe....

I can not hold my breath.

I can not get my hopes up.

But I had an interview this afternoon....

And I think it went well.

ohgod...there I go....getting hopeful.

It seems like a decent company. Not too big, not too small. They said my resume had everything on it that they are looking for.

The interviewer didn't even flinch at the pay I had requested (granted I didn't put down quite as much as I was making - but close).

So...I will not hold my breath.

I will not turn blue.

I will just politely cross my fingers, toes, legs and eyes...

And try to think positive thoughts.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Ohhh now I've done it...

Ok, I entered a photo contest.

Do not ask me why. I can not answer that!

Ohhh I have entered other contests before, but never for photography.

And here is where I need help.

I need your vote!!

So, please help an ole lady out and vote for my picture.

http://www.jpgmag.com/photos/650778

It's my sisters dog. His name is Useless, but he is wonderful. He gives love so he actually isn't useless at all.

Any help you can give will be greatly appreciated!!!

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Pet Peeves...

Oh come on - we all have them. Yes, even you!

And me.

I admit it.

And I bitch about them....

Only I do it when alone, so no one hears.

Funny how little things can drive you up a wall. Stupid little things...

Like not shutting doors.

Oh, I'm not talking just about outside doors - I mean cabinet, closet and pantry doors.

And I am not the one leaving them open.

Therefore, it has to be the roomie. Or a ghost. But since the house is only a year old I tend to think roomie.

I can walk into the kitchen at any time of day or night and there it is...the pantry door standing open. Anywhere from a few inches to completely open, door swung out all the way.

I then can turn around - go into the bathroom and the linen closet door will be open. Why? I haven't a clue. Plenty of toilet paper on the thingie...tissues on the back of the toilet....toothpaste in the drawer...clean towels on the rack.

Next, we approach the laundry room and yep - there it is...the door to the garage...open.

Mom used to say, "you were not born in a barn - shut the door!"

Me? I am going to start leaving notes...post it notes....

"Please shut the pantry door. The canned goods have complained they can't sleep due to the light."

"Please shut the linen closet door. I'm tired of hearing the towels and sheets bitch about not having any privacy."

"Please shut the door to the garage. The garage called and said its getting too warm in there from the furnace running all the time."

Ok, ok...enough about doors.

How about people who mix up there/their? Or our/are? Especially when its a manager making the big bucks at your last place of employment....yea, the one that laid you off due to financial problems.

Or, people who drive way under the speed limit on the interstate - in the left lane.

Ok, ok...I'll stop. But you have to admit - we all have pet peeves.

What are yours?

Saturday, April 19, 2008

I have a new friend...



This is my new friend.

Actually, she is an old friend. I just did not see her for a year.

Last summer she came to visit for one night. I fed her, she was so very hungry. Turkey breast was all I had and she loved it.

I went out the next day and got some cat food, just in case... But, she didn't return.

Until Wednesday night. The roomies son came in and told me we had a visitor.

She was very skittish at first. Wanted to come near me, yet she didn't want to. I talked gently to her and would just reach out my hand.

It didn't take long and she was all over me, wanting to be loved.

I got out the cat food (yes, I still had it) and she gobbled it up. I sat out there with her that night, loving on her and trying to get her ole purrbox to working. She has such a loud meow! I finally came in - after about 2 hours and it was getting rather cool outside.

She came back the next night. I sat and loved on her again, fed her again even though she wasn't quite as hungry as before.

I have to wonder if she belongs to someone. She isn't starved skinny thank goodness.

Last night when we got back from a baseball game, there she was - hanging on the screen on the front window! So I fed her, loved her, left her water and came in after a while.

When I looked out, she was still there - curled up asleep in the big flower pot.

I think I am in love.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Exercising is not my idea of fun...

But, I believe its become what is commonly known as a necessary evil in my life.

And yes, it is evil.

And yes, I am becoming obsessive compulsive about it.

And yes, its driving me nuts.

Ok, so if you have read my blog in the past you might know that I quit smoking in July of 2007. And no, I have no smoked since (yea me!). But...

I have gained weight.

(Insert extremely long, heavy and sad sigh here...)

No, I have not gained 50,000 lbs or even 50 lbs but I am struggling to get my butt into my favorite jeans and its killing me. Doctor said he isn't worried. He said, "Sandy, you had two back surgeries last summer and you stopped smoking. You are bound to gain weight!"

But I don't wanna....not any more thankyouverymuch.

So, every morning before I bathe I get on my exercise bike and do 5-8 miles. Then I get out the exercise ball and do a bunch of crunches and the twisty crunches.

Then...later in the day (I'm unemployed remember - so I need something to keep me busy and off the streets) I put the exercise dvd in and either do cardio or some other stuff that I have no idea what its called - toning or something like that. And then after dinner (I usually wait half an hour after I eat - don't want to get cramps and ...ohwait...forget this part) I get on my exercise bike again and do 10-12 more miles, more crunches on the exercise ball, some other exercises on the floor. Sometimes I alternate though and use the treadmill at night and do one or two miles (I set it at about 3.7 which on the treadmill I have is a pretty damned good clip - the roomie says I'm not walking but trotting).

I am trying to really cut back on the food intake and am drinking a ton of water. (Ok, plug for ole wallyworld....they have this great great great sparkling flavored water - the mandarin orange is my favorite! I drink two or so liters a day.)

I think I am noticing a change in my old body, I feel like I've lost a couple pounds.

I do not own a scale.

I do not want holes in the wall from throwing it.

So no, exercising is not fun. It makes you hot and sweaty.

But unlike sex there is no climatic ending...

Damnit.

Anyway, maybe someday I'll be skinny again...at least skinnier :)

Monday, April 07, 2008

Happy Birthday Christopher!


Twenty-six years ago today I was blessed. At 1:06pm a gift was given to me unlike any gifts before or since...

My son.

Today he turns 26 years old. Hard to imagine that my boy is almost the age I was when I had him!

The joy this child has brought into my life - well, it can't be measured. As a baby there was a constant smile on his face - a huge huge smile and laughter.

I learned to look at life in a totally different way - through his eyes. Watching him grow and learn! Everyday there was something new.

Oh, I'm not saying my son is perfect! Trust me when I tell you that he has put me through some trials and tribulations that I wouldn't want others to go through - but it has brought us to where we are today.

He is a good kid. He works hard. He has a plan for the future. He has goals and he is working hard to reach them. He is making a good life for himself and his future family. And I couldn't be more proud of him.

So today at 1:06pm I will say out loud - Happy Birthday my son - and I will thank God for the gift he gave me.

Happy Birthday Christopher. Your mother loves you very much.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Here we go again.....

Friday afternoon at approximately 4:30 the phone rang. I checked caller ID and it said Private Call Private Number...

That's a new one.

And, what's surprising is - I answered it.

"Hello, is Sandra home?" the call started. "Speaking" I said.

"We would like to know if you could come in next Wednesday around lunch time for an interview?"

"I can do that" I replied "But...may I ask who is calling?"

"Iamgoingtomumblethenamesoyouwontunderstand, Patent Attorney's", she stated.

I told her I could be there at noon and had to ask for an address, and I asked who I should ask for when I get there.

"Oh, Matt or Marilyn"

I had no idea in hell who had just called me. I had an address and a time to be at that address next Wednesday.

I love Google.

I put the address in and presto!! I know who it is I am going to see next Wednesday about a possible job!

Yea!

Now, I have absolutely no idea what the position is. I truly do not remember applying for a position with a law firm - but since I have done database/admin/management/IT/MIS/purchasing type jobs for the last 30 years it must be one of those or a combination thereof.

I told the roomie (I am trying desperately not to get excited after the last disappointment) and he just said "Pam works for an attorney and only gets paid minimum wage as a file clerk."

So much for moral support.

And, I am NOT Pam (she is his ex-wife, divorced in 1991).

I told him if I want to earn minimum wage I will work for Wal-Mart or something like that. Oh, and I have not applied for any file clerk jobs. I'll leave those for Pam.

Anyway - I have an interview. Maybe this is the first (well, fourth actually) of many to come. Maybe it will be the job I've always wanted. Fun, fortune, fame...wait...its a patent attorney office. ohwell

I can dream can't I?

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

It really is Spring!



Hot Damn! WhooooHoooo! Whoopee!

I do believe spring has finally sprung!

I have a flower in my yard!

I planted a lot of bulbs last fall, wondering at the time if anything would grow in the dirt we have. But lo and behold I have a flower! And we have a lot more coming through the dirt.

I can not wait to get outside and play in the dirt. Our neighbor across the street actually told the roomie last summer that I shamed her into hiring a landscaper! She said our yard looked so nice she had to get some color in hers too.

It's odd though. Growing up I would watch my parents working out in the yard. Dad loved it - absolutely LOVED it. Mom too. Me? ohgoddoIhavetocutthegrass? But now I love it.

Actually I think its a great way to get my frustrations out.

Poor little weeds.

So, with the showing of my gorgeous yard...ok ok...my one flower, it is my pleasure to announce that spring is really and truly here!

Yeah!!!

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Arrgghhhh....

Ok, so the last few weeks have been kinda rough.

I lost my job of 8 years. A job I really loved. A job where I felt that I contributed to the good of the world, where I helped people once in a while. A job that got to my heart and soul.

But its gone and now my focus is on trying to find another job.

(Ok, so I had a meltdown in my previous post. But I wanted that job damnit!)

So today I got up and again went searching through the newspaper classifieds both online and the paper itself. I went to a few other job search engines and searched and searched - and as usual I sent out a few resumes.

Then, I went to visit Mom and my sister. While there I got Mom setup with online banking so we can keep a closer watch on her checking account and I filed for her to possibly get the now infamous stimulus payment! She gets Social Security only, so I went online to the IRS site and got the paperwork - tried to do it online through a couple of the free sites and it was more difficult than filing regular taxes. Sooooo I said screw it and did it the old fashioned way - my hand!

Yes - I used an ink pen!

Now, when I left home this morning I was wearing a white long-sleeved t-shirt with a pretty red hooded sweater and my most favorite pair of jeans. I was looking pretty spiffy if I do say so myself. And, when at Moms I took a trip to the bathroom to do what people do in bathrooms and....

arrrrghhhhhhh.......

the zipper broke!

Not one, but two of the little metal teeth fell out and it can't be fixed.

I think mom and my sister heard me arrrghh because when I came out they asked what was wrong.

My sister giggled.

Mom said I could take them and get a new zipper. Not worth it - they were bought on sale and I only paid about $15 for them.

arrrghhhhh.....

So now not only am I old, ugly and unemployed - I am minus my most favorite jeans.

damndamndamn

shit even...

Monday, March 31, 2008

Still Unemployed...

I just received an email from a (former) possible employer.

Again I've been told thanks but no thanks. We have a couple candidates who are more familiar with "mail order" processing.

How in the hell do you know if I am qualified or familiar with it if you didn't ask?

I will end up at freaking Wal-Mart.....

I have no formal education, but I have a lot of experience. Not everyone could afford to go to college in my day.

I work hard. I put my heart and soul into whatever job I have,

And no one wants to give me a chance.

There are so few jobs available as it is - and I am older, I made more money than anyone wants to pay apparently. I've been told I'm "over qualified"....

I am angry. I am hurt. I am depressed as hell.

I want to work. I want a job where I can contribute and use my experience. I do not want a job where I do not have to think and just do the same thing over and over. I am too old to work two or three part time or full time minimum wage jobs.

I did NOT say I am too good to work those types of jobs. I will if I have to.

Part of my job was "out sourced". Part. Get that? Part. I did the work of two or three people and they cut my job. Now others are working even harder than they were before (I have talked to them - hence I know of what I speak) and the old bosses friend is making money - they gave my job to his company.

Yep, I'm angry.

Yep, I'm worried as hell.

And yes, I'm scared.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

February 13th....



April 3, 2000 I started working for a non-profit organization in Dayton. You've heard of them - they preach about ethics and trust. They help consumers when they have a problem with a business, and they help businesses when they get caught up in a scam.

The work done there became a part of me. Investigating schemes and scams and helping people out of the jam they had gotten themselves into - working with Government officials to stop the bad guys - working with the other employees to help them with a computer problem or to talk to someone that wouldn't listen to them.

Helping people.

It became part of me.

And now I am a budget cut.

Yes, February 13th, 2008 the CEO and my boss, the COO, called me into an office to tell me my job had been eliminated. They are undergoing major financial problems and had to cut back.

I was one of two cutbacks.

Oh, I will get unemployment and they are paying me my 6 weeks of vacation I had accumulated. And, they are even giving me a whole 4 weeks severance pay. Half a week pay for year year I gave them.

Mighty big of them don't you think?

Angry? Yes, some. I worked at least 50 hrs a week. No one told me to but I did it to make sure work got done - even some work that wasn't mine to do. If anyone needed help I would help if possible. If someone needed me to talk to someone that wouldnt listen to them - I did it.

I felt needed. I felt as if I actually did some good in this ole world.

And now I am a 53 year old unemployed woman.

Jobs in this area, as in others, are hard to find. I really don't want to start over again and build my way up but will if I have to. My pay increased $10,000 a year in the 8 yrs I worked there and I really do not want to have to cut back that far again and scrimp and starve...survive.

I want to do more than just survive. And I will. I will do what it takes. If I have to start over again I will. I have started at the bottom before.

But I will miss it. I do already.