It's funny how people change - when you have made a change.
And, it's funny how, instead of asking questions or trying to discuss it - they just make assumptions. And, you turn into a bad guy.
It's ok.
It was sudden, or at least some seem to think it was. It wasn't. It was years in the making. People just didn't open their eyes and see what was in front of their faces.
It's funny. It took me a long time too - and I was the one involved.
Sure, I caused a change in their lives too I guess - but you would think that if they cared at all, that they would want me to be happy too. After all, I tried to make it work.
And it takes two to do that - and well, I am only one.
I didn't break any one's heart. You have to have one and open it for it to be broken.
Sure, I got to go on nice trips sometimes. But trips don't keep you warm at night. They don't hold you when your heart is breaking and your life is falling apart.
It's funny how I used to cry myself to sleep almost every night, and no one saw but me.
It's funny how I haven't cried myself to sleep since I've been on my own again. Except the night my son left to go back to his home.
It's funny how I am blamed for things I didn't do.
It's even funnier that I know things he did do, and they would be shocked if they knew.
But, I'll be the bad guy. It's ok.
Just think about it - there had to be a reason I would leave after 17 years.
Funny how that works.....
